It’s funny that it really was last year when I went on holiday, because it does almost feel like a WHOLE year since I’ve engaged properly on social media. Of course, it’s only weeks in reality and there’s a good reason – it’s because I’ve been unwell and quite grumpy… But as the fog of illness began to clear, I realised I’d lost my sense of SMELL. It’s been a difficult thing to deal with. At times, I’ve felt quite detached from reality as my world has felt incredibly one dimensional, and I’ve actually been grateful for the lack of energy I have post whatever this virus was, because it’s weird and upsetting to lose such an acute and important sense, and I’m glad not to have subjected myself to the drama that would undoubtedly have set in if I was feeling stronger – especially just as I’m launching my business.
Instead, I’ve taken the time to relax and reflect on how far I’ve come over the last year. I have done a ton of “inner work” in reaction to life events which has left me feeling emotionally stronger and on a firmer foundation than ever, alongside learning more about running a business than I ever expected to need to know and probably wouldn’t have had the capacity for without the inner work. So despite how hard it felt at the time, and how much I felt it slowed me down, I can now see that everything was exactly as it needed to be.
I know that this period of time where my sense of smell has been absent (and thankfully it is now returning) has been to help me appreciate it more. Although I normally have a finely developed, even acute, sense of smell, I can see now that I have never fully appreciated just how much of an extra dimension it gives my world view, because it’s normal for me. It’s entirely normal for me to think about how that shade of blue in the sea was exactly right for how it smelled that day, or to evaluate temperature by smell (don’t ask me to explain that one!) Since I studied perfumery, I’ve got better at “how” to smell, so will use different methods to try and break down what I’m smelling, but this is still something I do consciously as opposed to how I usually just apply the extra layer of scent to my thought processes. So I’m taking this time to concentrate on other, practical, things that need to happen for my business to take shape, and practising gratitude for the things I do have. Being creative is wonderful, but it can sometimes mean that the necessary follow up to bring an idea to life takes a back seat, so it’s good for me to have a period of enforced practicality. Life has taught me that when you look back, the dots of the things that happen do join up, and usually do so beautifully. Everything leads to where you are now, and as long as you accept that and don’t fight against it, where you are now is the jumping off point for everything yet to come….
Out of all your senses, which do you think you most take for granted? Take some time to celebrate that ability and the extra dimension it brings to your life. There’s nothing quite like gratitude for lifting your spirits.